By accident we stumbled into Tompskin Square Park to film this videoblog episode. The question we asked was “What is the hardest thing you’ve had to overcome?” It is a heavier episode/blog for us, but amazing answers really. I love that everyone’s reality is different. The things we struggle with vary so much…and each thing no matter how tough you or I may perceive it is real for that person.
I answered being gay in the midwest in our vodcast…and while that is real. I feel the answer that is really true for me and which I am still trying to overcome is loss. The loss of a loved ones. When I was younger loss came in the form of a relationship ending…my first love and I splittin up…my partner a few years ago, but the real loss occurs when someone is gone from this earth. The loss of my cousin to leukemia when I was in my 20’s, he was so young and beautiful…but the death of my grandmother was even harder. She was my soulmate. It is too fresh (even though it’s been 4 years) to think about sometimes. She was my best friend…She nurtured me and accepted me unconditionally. She taught me so much about the world…shared her stories and love for poetry and words and gardening and food and exploration and life with me. She taught me things I would not have normally learned in the middle of Indiana. And as I grew up we would exchange advice. I remember the first time she wanted my opinion on a situation with some of her friends. Our relationship was timeless and not bound by the age difference. We shared so much. She had a broad mind and overcoming the loss of her this life time is something I am not sure how to do. You just go on…time I suppose. For quite a while I just blocked it out, but then pieces come back. It feels good to remember now. We all have loss in this life, I know I am not the only one having a hard time overcoming it.